Like a Virgin...

A friend of mine recently told me that he lost his virginity. He told me that he knew he was going to marry this girl, so that it wasn't that big of a deal. He regrets it, wishes he would have chosen different, but is at peace. I wish I could the same for myself. Ever since he talked to me I have been constantly thinking about it. I feel incredibly lucky to be the person that I am and lucky to find myself still a virgin after all the mistakes of my past.

My friend said the he 'knew' he was going to marry the girl. I find it interesting the things that we know. "1500 years ago, everyone knew that the Earth was the center of the universe. 500 years ago, everyone knew that the Earth was flat....Imagine what you'll 'know' tomorrow." In my own life, 8 years ago I knew I would never do 'that' sin again, 5 years ago I knew I would be a youth minister, and 3 months ago I knew who I was going to marry.

Life doesn't turn out like you thought it would. I cannot believe I keep coming back to this stupid movie, The Weatherman. I have yet to find another person who likes the movie, in fact I dont' know if I like it. But it struck a nerve. I guess I can relate. A guy just couldn't grip it. He couldn't knuckle down on his life. Maybe that's not such a bad thing. Maybe I'm not supposed to knuckle down in my life. Maybe that's what reliance on God really means. To stop trying to have everything work out and fit. Maybe...

So here's my conclusion. My ending statements. I know a lot of things. I know who I am. I know who my friends are. I know what I like to drink and eat and read. But all of these things can change. Just because I know them doesn't make them firm. But beliefs....those you cannot take from me. I believe that Jesus is more than a way to make my life better. I believe that Jesus can do so many more things with me, if only I had the faith. And I believe that my life is really messed up and that I don't have everything together, and that is why I believe I need a savior.

So I know some things. And I believe others. I'd rather believe than know any day of the week.